The Lighthouse Keeper.....

Gather around children for I have a tale to tell. A tale of sadness and decit on the high seas......

Actually, I don't.

Sorry to get your hopes up ;)

I visited a decrepit lighthouse today and thought it would make a great backdrop for a horror movie or something. It was on the ocean, the real honest to goodness ocean. Not a beach, or a bay but the freaking OCEAN. The ocean is scary. You look out and all you see on the horizon is where the deep dark sky meets the deep dark ocean. It freaks the hell out of me and makes me feel very small and powerless. I mean, what if a tsunami were to rise up and drown us all? And what about sharks? Sharks are the cockroach of the sea, or maybe it's lobsters that are the cockroach of the sea. I'm not sure. Either way, at least lobsters taste good and don't have the ability to bite your leg off. So, they're A Okay in my books.

I just don't think I'm meant for a life at sea. Sorry Canadian Naval Forces. And your recruiting bus was just here too. Darn.

So,

I got to pet and feed a baby cow yesterday. A first for me. It was very gentle and had big trusting eyes. I don't think I will ever be able to eat beef again. I'm serious. I was a vegetarian for much of my life but fell off the wagon about 12 years ago.

I don't eat a lot of meat though and would still rather eat pasta than a steak but I just felt so sad and GUILTY when I was petting that baby cow. I almost cried but tried to hold back because I figured everyone would think I was a complete loon. But seriously, one day in the not too distant future, someone will be eating that innocent creature. It's a very sad thought.

I think maybe this is a sign that I should eliminate red meat altogether. I honestly don't know if I could eat any now anyway with that image of the soft, trusting baby calf in my head. I'm weird like that. Food "things" bother me. My bf showed me what chicken Mcnuggets look like before they cook them and I haven't been able to eat one since. It looked like a giant pink snake with no skin. Disgusting.