Haven't been here in a long time, have I?
I think about my blog often and WANT to post, but I don't. Something happened in my life last Fall that has altered my life forever. It is hard to start over at the beginning when you are firmly ensconced in the middle of said experience. I don't even know if I want to start over and write the words out anyway. It is too difficult, too painful.
Suffice to say that I have been through a life changing experience. It involves someone's death. I will not say who. The trial is ongoing as we speak. I'm sure you can read between the lines on that and deduce that it was not by natural causes.
I am changed forever.
I have been off work for months. I have been to a lot of counselling. I now have PTSD. I thought Post Traumatic Stress was for deployed soldiers who came back home from a tour of duty completely fucked in the head from what they've seen.
But I was wrong.
Suspicious. Paranoid. Afraid. Triggers. Anxiety. Panic. Fear. Fear. Fear. Avoidance. Tears. Housebound. Life on Pause.
This is where I am now......
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2 comments:
I am glad to see you are back. However, I am sad to hear that your life has been turned upside down.
As a loyal reader of your blog I pray to the spirits that some sunshine will enter your life. You will be in my thoughts.
You know who this is... email me.
No more fighting.
x
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