I can almost taste the anger....

Did you ever feel such anger towards someone that you wanted to punch them in the throat?

That is how I feel towards Jamie's girlfriend right now. After I saw those pictures of Jamie's brother's wedding, I got in contact with Jamie's sister and she gave me a golden nugget of info. She claims that the only reason no one has met my son thus far is because Jamie's girlfriend wasn't happy about it...which was just as I suspected all along.

Her advice to me was to be patient and that they would work it out eventually. Wow, funny. I believe Jamie's brother told me the exact same fucking thing more than a year ago and wow, look, nothing has changed at all. We are in the same fucked up situation, that we have always been in and are no closer to a resolution.

What a fucking surprise.

People are such fucking asses sometimes. Fuck, fuck, fuckity fuck. Yes, I am swearing profusely, aren't I? Hard to believe that I am a caring, loving nurse by day but can turn on the cold, calculating, angry bitch if need be? Well, it's not as hard as you think, trust me.

I mean, how can you deny a young child the chance to know his family, just because you "don't like the situation"? Well, suck it up bitch and put on your big girl panties, because this is the REALITY of the situation:

"I fucked your boyfriend LONG before you met him and we had a child. Get over it."

Fuck, I hate people sometimes.

I almost feel like saying "Because not one of you has a fucking backbone to stand up to this bitch, you can all go fuck yourselves". I have waited so many years for a fucking resolution and this is what I get???

"Just be patient"????

I have fucking well been patient. More than patient.

Part of me wants to hire a lawyer and nail his ass to the wall for child support and then part of me wants to tell him to get out of our lives for good and never contact me again.

Decisions, decisions.....