Everything....

It has been an odd time since the miscarriage. I have really taken it easy for the first time in years. The doctor put me off work for several days and I knew it wasn't enough and so, I took more. I knew I needed it, mentally I needed it. I haven't worked more than a couple of days this month and I am glad for the reprise from all the sickness and death. I almost feel "normal" again and god knows, I haven't felt that way in a long, long time.

I have been on a cleaning frenzy lately and I am enjoying the order around me. Normally, the laundry, vaccuming, washing floors, etc, take a back seat to pretty much everything else. It's not that I don't want to do it, it's just that I am basically fried after I get home from work....and I work a lot.

My relationship with Daddy since the miscarriage has been changed somehow. He has been VERY understanding and supportive of my numerous emotional breakdowns and mood swings. Daddy keeps telling me that it isn't my fault and intelligently I believe him, but emotionally, I lay awake at night and wonder "What if?". What if the baby hadn't died? What if he had been born, perfect and good and sweet. How would my life be different?

It is enough to set me bawling my eyes out and frankly, I am tired. I just woke up and therefore have the next 16 hours to berate myself and cry over what could have been.

Daddy and I had sex yesterday. It was good. It's always good with Daddy. My pussy was sopping wet and made gushing sounds as he pumped his big, hard cock into me. He waited until I came on his cock and then pulled out. He yanked me over to the side of the bed on my back and made me dangle my head over the side. He then stood behind me, with his feet on the floor, and slid his cock, wet with pussy juice, down my throat. He kept pumping and gagging me with his cock until I started whimpering and shaking my head no. I couldn't speak with his cock so deep in my throat. He made me endure several more strokes, then pulled out and shoved my face roughly into his balls and said "Lick". I licked and sucked his balls enthusiastically while he stroked his cock. In the end, he threatened to flip me over and cum in my ass but I begged him not to and then he came all over my naked tits.

What a nice Daddy ;)